the stupidest thing i've done

And Kim said, "That's how nice guys like you get fucked over." And I knew she was right. I knew. But the deed is done and, really, I don't regret it. I'm not saying it wasn't stupid as fuck, but I don't regret it. I probably should. That's the most extravagant I've been in a long time; a very long time. See, in that one day, I spent 495 bucks. It goes to reason that I didn't spend most of it on myself. Why else would it be a problem? On a good day, I can go on to say that I didn't spend a single cent. Of course, everybody has days like that, where they just want to shut themselves indoors, maybe kick back in a comfortable sofa, beanbag, whatever have you, and kick some ass on their Xbox; but in all honesty, I can not spend a single cent for days on end. I am so damn thrifty, I drink water to hold back the gastritis and go home and eat like a bawse.

So now you're wondering what I did with 495. Suffice to say, I spent 30 on myself that day. Stupid of me? Maybe. Actually, definitely. I don't know what I was thinking but the remainder didn't seem like much at the time. It doesn't even seem like much now, actually, but the thing is that I'm not even dating this girl. I don't know, but I think most people - like 97.89% - of people would agree that it was the stupidest thing I could have done. They might be right. I don't usually do stupid things. This girl whom I'm not even dating, she has attention handed to her on silver platters. Imagine five silver platters in your face. Now imagine ten. Now imagine a thousand. That's what she has. Fuck that, I don't even care anymore. It took me 465 to realise what a right dumb cunt I've been. So be it. I guess Hansern and love doesn't go in the same sentence.

Fucking off now, K, bye.