that which is a lot but not enough

"I deserve a lot but she deserves more," that which runs through my mind and haunts me; because I am such a small person that I cannot get past the barrier of this inferiority complex. It plagues me. It really does. Why though? Will a girl who is more superior in intellect judge a man by his achievements? Huh... The logical sequence in my head implies otherwise. Either way, Hansern, you are a huge fuck. What are you doing?