just a little more than you asked for

Some nights last too long. You don't really know why but it haunts you. So, what eats you, child? So young and so stupid, you think you know it all but you don't really. Is that what eats you? Is that why you cower behind yourself? You don't know anything and that scares you. You don't have to hide it but you do. Why?

So here you go, this is a piece of yourself that you will forever remember. One day in the future, you will get out of bed and remember that you were once even more stupid than you are then. Does it make you proud that you've grown? It shouldn't. You are worthless scum, a nobody with nowhere to go and nothing to do. Sadly, that might be what you will always amount to. Hell, you know it. That's why you want it to end. It won't though.

Your existence is useless and you will forever be stepped on. You are the dirt beneath all the shoes in the world and if anybody has anything to say about it and, yes, they do, that's where you'll be until your last breath. You are the dirt people wash off their hands and the grime people wipe off their boots. You are nothing but a lousy good-for-nothing insect.

So there you go, one more night that lasted too long has come and reminded you your place on this planet. Don't you forget it, boy, because you never deserved life.