time of the month

So you say you need time. Don't we all? It's very simple, really. You go and say something vague. People try to understand; they may or they may just pretend to. Not that it matters, of course. If you really wanted to be understood, you wouldn't put it so vaguely. Do you want to be understood? That's really not the point, is it? You're just trying to find a way to express yourself. Sure, if that makes you feel better, go right ahead. You know it does and that's really all that matters right now. You see, the thoughts you have are normal or, at least, you'd like to think so. That's fine too. Don't we all feel like we're lost sometimes? But that's when you find yourself. You find a way to be OK with what you are, who you are, where you are, and you find a way to move on. It's really just that simple.

You have the time now. Tell me what you're thinking. You feel like the world is too cruel. Where do you want to go? What do you want to do? You've always felt that you'll amount to something but you're not so sure anymore. Rather than fearing this ambiguity, why don't you embrace it? Take it a day at a time but never waste it. How long is an hour? 60 minutes, 3600 seconds, 10 well-rehearsed questions or just the one that you got stuck on, the time it takes to learn something new but only barely; what's your point? That maybe an hour isn't a very long time. If you take 15 minutes to drive somewhere and another 15 minutes back, that's half an hour which leaves the other half for something. You get 24 of those a day, a third of which is used for sleep, two thirds of which you waste doing nothing great. Perhaps it's time you reconsider how you use your time; that is, if you've ever considered it at all. Make a schedule? That's a cheap effort, man. Don't mock this question. You know what I mean and you know you're a mess. It's time to think about the things you want to do. Which leaves you with one last question. For now.

What will you do?